Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Our God is an awesome God we rise ... What we are is a gift from God and what God is, is a gift from us.
Okay, a lil emo here. I know i shouldn't be and not expecting too high from myself. But it's not the usual me. I've never been so upset with my results. I've never been so depressed. I've never been scared to tell others my results whenever they ask me. Now, all i'll do and just keep quiet and walk away without answering. I'm sorry ...
Got a rough idea of what am I going to talk about in this particular entry? yesyes, my prelims' results. It's ridculous la! SIGH!
Social Studies - 25/50 (which initially will be at least 28 or even 30 la)
Maths Paper 1 - 59/80 (which initially will be at least 70)
Maths Paper 2 - 62/100 (okay, this is atrosious!)
Accounting Paper 1 - 20/30 (which initially will be 25)
Accounting Paper 2 - 44/70 (F*** this!)
F&N - 39/100 (which is awful too!)
See how i faired?
Now, i can't concentrate well. Am in the school's computer lab having F&N coursework lesson. But i can't continue doing them. Mr Ong's a kind soul. He postpone to 5pm this afternoon to be the deadline. I'm gonna do it and hand up no matter what! andandand, i can't cope well. Janet (Accounting tutor) is so upset with my result. She could see a change in my attitude. WHAT DID I DO?!
I'm really lost ...
3:07 AM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
(Pictures taken at Sentosa will be uploaded in the next entry, prolly.)
The whole day i was hoping that i could stay in an air-conditioned room. So during Miss Wong's lesson, i was enjoying the air-con. When majority of them were feeling cold and practically shivering, i did not allow them to off the air-con. okay, i'm mean. but yeah, you know the internal heat in me was like BOILING at 100000000 degree celcius. so was Yani's.
Upon reaching school, everyone went "what happened to you? suntan ah?" or "eh, your face very red lehhh.". yeahyeah, i know. i think many people thinks that i've more red cells than white. oh, pleaseeee...
I had my 'B' Chinese oral this afternoon at KCP. the school was fablous la. Air-conditioned hall. I was enjoying in there. Haha. So when my turn came right after Nat's, i read thru' the passage for 3times and 5mins was over. I proceeded to the examiners, greeted them and sitted down and started reading. blah blah blah ... conversation time. This was the part which i screwed up la. I was too friendly that when one of the examiner asked me...
Part 1
Him: What do you usually do during your holidays?
Me: It depends on the period of time. If it's during the March and June's holidays, i'll just hang out with my friends or stay at home to revise my work. If it's during the year end break, i will look for a job and save up the money for further needs.
Him: Oh, so obedient?
Me: Ah, yeah, of cos!
Part 2
Him: Do you feel that teachers are giving too much work during the holidays?
Me: Nah, they usually called for extre lessons. I don't think it's good or useful to give so much work. If too much work and students cannot finish, they will copy from their friends which wouldn't help them at all.
Him: So i'm sure you're not that group of people you're talking about?
Me: Ah, of cos not! haha.
Look at how friendly was I? Both the examiners were like laughing at me la. so embarrassed!
Tonight, i will not be able to sleep. Have to hand in my coursework by tomm at 6:30am. BLOODY HELL :( all the best to me...
CIAOS!
Upon reaching school, everyone went "what happened to you? suntan ah?" or "eh, your face very red lehhh.". yeahyeah, i know. i think many people thinks that i've more red cells than white. oh, pleaseeee...
I had my 'B' Chinese oral this afternoon at KCP. the school was fablous la. Air-conditioned hall. I was enjoying in there. Haha. So when my turn came right after Nat's, i read thru' the passage for 3times and 5mins was over. I proceeded to the examiners, greeted them and sitted down and started reading. blah blah blah ... conversation time. This was the part which i screwed up la. I was too friendly that when one of the examiner asked me...
Part 1
Him: What do you usually do during your holidays?
Me: It depends on the period of time. If it's during the March and June's holidays, i'll just hang out with my friends or stay at home to revise my work. If it's during the year end break, i will look for a job and save up the money for further needs.
Him: Oh, so obedient?
Me: Ah, yeah, of cos!
Part 2
Him: Do you feel that teachers are giving too much work during the holidays?
Me: Nah, they usually called for extre lessons. I don't think it's good or useful to give so much work. If too much work and students cannot finish, they will copy from their friends which wouldn't help them at all.
Him: So i'm sure you're not that group of people you're talking about?
Me: Ah, of cos not! haha.
Look at how friendly was I? Both the examiners were like laughing at me la. so embarrassed!
Tonight, i will not be able to sleep. Have to hand in my coursework by tomm at 6:30am. BLOODY HELL :( all the best to me...
CIAOS!
2:43 PM
Monday, September 26, 2005
As planned, we went down to Sentosa. yeahyeah, with last night's weather, we came up with a backup plan. If it were to rain, we'll catch a movie. Luckily, it didn't :)
yeah, as usual, i was late. I forgot to bring my digi cam. I had to rush back home and get it. Thank God, i was just downstairs my place. If not, Maman, you will be sad! haha.
Met Azmi & Man near my place then took a bus to meet Yan. After which, went to meet Ruz. Had our lunch before going into Sentosa.
Went to Billabong to look for Emms. So happy to see her!! <3 chatted awhile, then went to Palawan. There, we swam and played with the volleyball/soccer ball. don't know exactly what is it. sadly, Yan's lost her specs cos she was pushed down from the wooden floating board :( the guys tried ways to look for it. Imagine it's 4metres deep, how the hell on earth is one gonna reach for it? sigh, there goes her specs!
And blah blah blah ...
Bathed, then took a train home. Yan left first .. the rest of us went to thomson plaza to have our improper-breakfast cum improper-lunch cum dinner! it was heaven! hahaaaaa...
Here i am with my burnt skin! arghhhh!! But overall, i had fun. And i bet the rest had fun too :))
I'm gonna sleep on the floor tonight with the air-conditioned bedroom! The heat is killing me!!
GOODNIGHT!
3:59 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
We're gonna head down to the beach tomm. And it's like FINALLY!
I still can't sleep ...
6:41 PM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
In school, Aldric was talking about the party at Club Momo last night. And damnit. He didn't tell me he's going with the ruggers! I wanna go so badly la.. ALRIC CHEW, you better tell me when's the next party coming up! Oh ya, I heard that on 8th of Oct, there's a party over at Indochin. CJC's party! Shall plan my schdule first ... HAHA!! XD
Our prom night this year will be at York Hotel. We're planning to book a room for a night or two there. And we'll be heading down to Attica after prom, since Nat's uncle is working over there. At the same time, I can look for Vincent. He's working there too. Oh yes, Yan's parents are working at York Hotel. So maybe we can get discount or something?
So for today's programme, i'll be going to have a swim with my mates. After which, we'll be heading down to town or something. Maman asked me to plan. I don't know where to go. Watch movie? They also don't want ... HAIYO!!
I received my Maths paper one result. I've got 59/80. Like f*cking low la. I was so disappointed with myself. Knowing that I didn't put in any effort, what more can I expect? How I wish i was cleverer..
To Yan & Geri:
Don't give up! I know you'al can do it. Not to worry, i'm always here :) love love <33
4:16 AM
Friday, September 23, 2005
Quoted from Maman as I was telling him that all of a sudden, i'm feeling emo. I don't know where and how this feeling come about. Everything in life seems so unpredictable. 2 years ago, I used to think about my future. I'm always hoping that I can be an Accountant since I frequently top the class in accounts. However, i've been having this bad feeling that I wouldn't make it to poly, don't even think about JC. All my goals, where are they now? I've been slacking away. This prelim finally ended. I must say no effort was put into all the papers. Mark my words, NO EFFORT! Sigh, how I wish I could turn back the time. To the time when I know which path am I walking towards.
James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on,
remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
Do listen to James Blunt songs. He really do sing great songs! I'm emo after listening to this. This all bring me back to 2 years back, when I was with X (let the guy be 'X'). And whenever I see him around in school, I saw a ray of hope that we'll get back together. I made a mistake in life. The biggest mistake. Let me meet someone like him, a guy that will always be there whenever I needed him, a guy who is as understanding as he is and he'll be my everything. Nevertheless, life still has to go on. I'm looking forward to the day when I can get my life settled down like my ladies, they have great boyfriends.
I've to stop emo-ing. As much as I want, I can't. DOUBLE-SIGH!
What on earth am I doing? I've school tomm. And i'm still here.
Have a good night rest.
4:58 PM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
today's my last paper for prelims. overall, all the papers are sucky.shan't continue this crap here ...
I went to soak myself in the water with yani & gerri ytd. quite fun. and we're going again later ..
meeting maman & co. later, AGAIN! haha, but i like! they're nice people :)
Love the 2 of them - Yani & Gerri. We'll pull thru' together.
5:55 AM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
after so many days of muggings.
These few days, i've been spending my time near my place mugging till wee hours with yan, maman and ruz. But eventually, Yan can't stay long. She has curfew. So i continued staying with the guys. What were we doing then? We didn't study much. We played most of the time. Ytd was Lantern Festival. After the residents left the compound, Maman and I went to search for some leftover candles. Hah, no childhood days XD Played with the candles and WEAKmaman was scared of the wax. funnyfunny.
Later on, all left. Then Amy & Ruz walked me home.
3 more papers to go ..
Tmr will be Physics & F&N.
Arghhhhhh ... I think i've done badly for prelims la.
Didn't put in as much effort..
7:53 AM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
pang, me, roy, haikel & taufiq
Ming, Zaki, Ain & Yani
My bro!
Bro & his gf
Daddy & Me!
Last night was filled with laughters. Everything's about joy~
8:44 AM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
It's gonna be true!
In less than 12hours, i'll be in the seventeenhood. BLESS ME!
Tonight, i'm gonna celebrate my seventeenth birthday at the BBQ downstairs my place. You'al are invited. Give me a call if you need any info.
And it's gonna be hell fun.
I should be studying a little now. I must admit that my self-high is "HIGH". I can't get myself to sit down and study for an hour or less than that. AH!
Now, i'm gonna prepare everything. HAHA!
I can't wait to see my girls, all the skimmer dudes and my mates! I MISS YOU'AL!!
4:17 AM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
i've been lazy to blog these days. many programmes been occupying me these few days. is it a good sign or bad?
had my Social Studies paper last friday, together with my B Chinese paper. Social Studies was crap la. I studied only 1 chapter out of the 4 chaps we were supposed to study. Unfortunately, that chap that i've studied did not came out. So i was crapping all the way on the paper. haha. as for cheena, it was fine. as usual, all MCQ questions. how difficult can it get? though i tried my luck for most all the questions. in fact, all the questions. cos i did not study for it la. haha. =X i'm being a lil' too proud for not studying here. funnyfunny!
On monday, one my friend came to pick me up. and went to m'sia for supper and top up petrol. super jam la. all the m'sia bikes were cutting queues. the way they bike is scary.
today, my uncle bought a digi camera for me as a b'day present. so good of him. i've saved a lot on this then. since i've been wanting to get one.
had my Social Studies paper last friday, together with my B Chinese paper. Social Studies was crap la. I studied only 1 chapter out of the 4 chaps we were supposed to study. Unfortunately, that chap that i've studied did not came out. So i was crapping all the way on the paper. haha. as for cheena, it was fine. as usual, all MCQ questions. how difficult can it get? though i tried my luck for most all the questions. in fact, all the questions. cos i did not study for it la. haha. =X i'm being a lil' too proud for not studying here. funnyfunny!
On monday, one my friend came to pick me up. and went to m'sia for supper and top up petrol. super jam la. all the m'sia bikes were cutting queues. the way they bike is scary.
today, my uncle bought a digi camera for me as a b'day present. so good of him. i've saved a lot on this then. since i've been wanting to get one.
- 4.0 MP for amazing-quality prints up to 20 × 30 in. (50 × 75 cm)
- 3X optical zoom, 5X advanced digital zoom
- On-camera Share button and Favorites feature
- On-camera cropping
- KODAK Color Science
- Continuous QVGA video featuring audio capture
- 13 easy-to-access scene modes and 3 color modes
not that bad after all :)
4:17 PM